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Monday, December 15, 2008


Do v ever lose love, can v ever? how can v lose sumthng as eternal as soul as obvious as emotions. Its like, if v believe in Buddhism or Hinduism. For Buddha everything is momentary bt continuous. every dying moment provides fuel for the preceeding moment. they can b connected but not eternal.

Yes its true, we say we have lost sumthing when its not with us. But does the same theory apply to LOVE? For me NO. Love is about loving n not holding sumthing, close to ur heart! I came across a show piece in a showroom and instantly fell in love. Okie, not satisfied?? Well i meet someone somewhere and after repeated interaction realised he is the man I was looking for all my life.The man seems good to me and interested too, and after a while things doesnt work out. But even when I dint know if the man loves me or not I started loving him.

Now if my love for some reason cannot stay with me, physically and emotionally. For eg., if the person dies, then? shall I loose my love? Or if my love leaves me for some other woman, shall I loose my love. In the 2nd case, most of us will accuse the person for adultry /double timing etc and will cry, brood and miss the person. And in the 1st instance we will just shed tears and miss the person. If we deeply look into the mater in both the cases the Love is not there with me. Under both the instances I m alone. But in the 2nd case there is a presence of an oppurtunity to blame someonelse, which we all invariably love to do.

For me in both the cases I didnt lose my love! Because my love is unconditional and shall not depend totally on his behavior or reaction towards me. For me Love is not a person, its a painting with different colors of emotion and I know how to respect and protect that. I never regret for loving anyone, be it frens, teachers, family......even though our relationship sours for some other reasons/due to physical or mental distance/adjustment probs. I cannot continue to b in terms/good terms wid them. But my love/emotions for them were & are always pure.

I never Lost ppl I love. They were n are always with me. Though I cant c/meet/share things with them always. Keu boltei parey eta amar mithye protisruti....tai jodi hoy? hok na , aami to besh bhaloi aachi!! Ami kono jinis ankre benche thakte bhalobashina. (Someone can say this is my false promise...if that being the case, let it be, I am anyway doing well! I donn like to hang on to something just to live.) If u really LOVE sumone set him/her free, if s/he comes back, s/he is urs, if not...then dnt let ur Love die over such an insignificant mistake of someone. Forgive bt nvr forget to continue Loving!Trust me, loved ones do not deserve to b lost in old yellow pages of memory, keep loving u wnt loose anything therefafter!

LOVE!(my comment,xtracted from a frens blog)

I think it has sumthing to do wid hormones. If u r actually talking abt L-O-V-E between two partners and n not betn u n ur parents. c no1 can deny soon after our puberty we all fell for some1 may b opp sex or same sex (doesnt matter any more. rt?). U can laugh n say dats not LOVE but infatuation, but I will say, the height n obsession it gives, nothing more can give u dat height in ur entire life! Thats why ppl strive to get that phase again in their lives. So, we can say, as everything has a time to arrive, Love comes in the same package with puberty. Coz then we have certain bio chemical changes, which triggers certain emotions unknown to us.

Next time u fall in love its either mere attraction or adjustment (that most of us actually agree to do), coz either we dnt want to be alone or wanna b happening, it depends!!! But do we realise, even though d stimulus we at first recieved, which oozed out the love inside out, is no longer with us, but that emotion stays deep in us which is like some kind of a liquid through which we want to look at our second love (or the series if follows). And shower that person with that precious emotion that once oozed for someone else.But all our life till we met some one next, we held this precious liquid close to our heart, which I feel can never regenerate.

LOVE exists, it definitely does, if ppl stop being selfish n frickle, we will witness this presently rare occassion all around us. Actually, we get too many options to choose someone in our life, which brings more confusion in our lives, we just cant help it.
U study in a school u get some1, rely special, then in college u again meet sum 2-3 ppl u r attracted to, then in job or anywhere……but do we really realize the rationale behind it?? If we check the ratio gals r less than the boyz. So, if a gal thinks she is really making boyz go gaga over her then ACTUALLY, statisctic plays the key role( I dnt mean vital stats her, wink!!!).

Looking at these common pictures all around us, dnt judge LOVE, its as eternal as eternity…… makes u complete, don love coz u wanna love, love coz its comes spontaneously to u. Dnt think abt the pros n cons, u think abt consequences and results when u have to sign a deal or get married. When we say “I took this decision”…do we really take it?? NO, innumerable circumstances forces us to tk the very decision, so its not ours . For every action of ours we calculate n if u apply the same theory, for LOVE then u cannot get never get to know what it is. If Radha wud have calculated so much…then her love for Krishna could never have reached the pedestal were we bow our heads. In common sense it was purely extra marital, rt??? No, for them it was a compulsion, a power before which, they can leave the whole world. It was beyond calculation. Its strange, when ppl find anything beyond calculation they either think its weird or pray before it. LOVE is sumthing beyond calculation,definition or scientific explanation just jump in this never ending ocean, it’s a beautiful feeling take my words if u r true n selfless u will never get drowned.

Sunday, December 14, 2008


Are we all happy playing our roles? Are we really who we want to be? Is my dentist who is successfully running flourishing clinic always wanted to be a dentist? Is the man running a grocery shop in my locality always expressed the same, whenever, in school he was asked to write an essay on “My aim in life”? does the maid that daily comes to my home always wanted to be the same? Does the bus driver who takes me to the desired destination everyday, and the conductor who helps me in the bus and informs me whenever my stop comes, always wanted to serve people that way?

Do we all feel entangled in the web of fulfilling social parameters and expectations of others? Do we really ever come to know the reason why God sent us here? Or we just keep doing our work as if, it is what God has assigned us to do? ? He must have a prior planning unlike we humans. Am sure His planning never gets changed due to the influence of innumerable compromising factors! He must have sent us with a purpose and a work for which He thinks I m the Best! I don’t deny that job/purpose can be a blunder even! May b no one could have done that killings better in CST station at Mumbai then Ajmal Amir Kasab. He needed him there at that job. Can we buy that theory and forgive Ajmal for his best performance? If not then how can we buy the theory for ourselves?

How can we just be happy with whatever work we are doing……just like what our tutor or typical essay books instructed us to write on the Essay: MY AIM IN LIFE?? Do we really forget the timid dream that we cherished whenever that topic allowed us to float on the clouds of our dream and the thought of success and happiness in our lives.
I think we do really forget because we are all social beings. When ever argued that, reply comes, there only a few Bill Gates, M.K. Gandhi, Dhirubhai Ambani, Jamshed ji Tata…. The common man cannot be like them because it involves lots of hardship and the reality is hot and dry which evaporates our clouds of dreams, and they fall down as rain only to allow us to survive.
Do we really have the guts to preserve the clouds and make them real castles, up...up above the sky? Some one said right…“all of us do not need stunning talents, only commonsense and love will do”……I want to add one more thing………STOP ignorimg the inner voice, so much of suppression will make it MUTE!!

Wednesday, November 19, 2008


Can we love two persons at a time? If love is immortal and eternal, then how can we love someone else after loving someone for years? Are we like machines, shift+delete (thanx newt!) and the file is deleted forever...and if the files are not deleted then wont it like not loving someone with ALLLL... we have? or is it like loving our school and college...however bad incidents/fights/jealousy might have happened but we all love our school, our college. Same with our family, our parents.....but still we manage to love so many things........its like God has put so much of love in us. But with ALLL.... can we really love someone? So, it is obvious we can love two persons at a time... there can be a moment when one realise that with both these men/women s/he can spend all his/her life with comfort?? But if one really gets someone whom s/he can love with all have...which is actually the true essence of love then s/he will never have to love anyone will make his/her life complete...its just like a perfect fit in a jigsaw puzzle...!! Till then keep on enjoying the apparently fitting ones...wink!!!

Friday, November 14, 2008


Hey! last night I wrote about the scores in school report cards, and this evening I got an answer. It seems, new age mummys are smart....lemme quote the converstion i heard between a mom and her 7 years old son." Maa I stood second, not bad,say! There is only one guy before me. Dear dont think that way, who is before u...never do even care who scored how much. Just think about the target u wanted to achieve, lets calculate, u r 27 marks behind ur target of 75%, i know the question paper was difficult, but 27 marks is nothing if u were a bit more serious & a bit more of your effort n u could have achieved it!" I was surprised...these are all my words....i smiled at the lady and said, your thoughts are really good, u r actually helping him to set his own targets other than, pushing him into the rat race...... I was smiling again & again at the lady...i just could not believe, wat all i did hear. Over hearing this 5mins conversation actually made my day. I was happy to see things are changing,.... I just talked about sumthing serious yesterday, and this evening I was at ease wont u call it mysteries of life?

Thursday, November 13, 2008

How much good scores in school matter?

I never scored better, nor did i ever try to...i know, am not a big shot. But thats not any of the reason. Thankfully, i took a decision, a very firm one must say, that i will not mug up, each and every thing in the syllabus. I will study only those I like, rest of them I will just go through once. I will set up my own targets and that definitely should not be any of my classmates aggregate scores. Many of my close ones tried to provoke me about my best and good frens, "see how much they can score, why cant you?" Thats the most familiar statement, which echos to our mind, when we just think about school time results. I promised to myself, I will be happy, with watever my children will score. If they have potentials, I will at best, push them a bit to set up, a 70% target and maintain the standards. It should not matter, how much did the first boy/girl scored. Dont we realise that knowing 70% of any class syllabus is enough for any one, we are not going to remember even 20-30% of the things, as they are not gonna be that useful to our daily/proffessional life. Then why do we really have to eat up thier mind and push them for each and everything.

People now send thier children to school as soon as they turn 2 years. And call it a play school, funny, rt?...and then there is bag, much heavier than thier weight can carry. Too many subjects, and not surprisingly, boringly strict teachers, who actually couldnt do much in thier life, but wants all thier students to be stars.

Now the question is even after this so called glaobalised educational system, why we dont get any (forget many)Eintiens & Newton these days. The answer is simple, because both of them failed too many times in thier school life. Now a days u just cant afford to do so!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Reason behind being pink!

Just , wondering why did i actually choose this color.. may b i want all our blues to be bleached into pink!

A good gesture to something new and good, I guess!!

Now as things have turned pink, let me add more crimson blush to it. The most memorable, moment of my life. When I had many reasons to b upset, grumpy,angry, felt as if the whole world has turned hostile to me. I sat on a high rock, from where a large skyscape can be experienced (which has become a rare sight due to huge sky scrappers all around us ), it was actually the terrace of the hotel at mount Abu, where we stayed for three days as we there for our excursion (supposed to b educational) just like QSQT. I gazed and gazed at the evening sky and all of a sudden felt as if I was in a bubble, and some one blew it high up on the sky, and am just floating on the will of the wind. Rainbow colours reflected on the transparent walls of my carriage..and i could see from the space, all good creations of nature, the bad couldnt touch me as if i was sitting on a vice resistant jelly! And then I felt so happy and elated that after the trip, I was rated as the happiest soul on the excursion by a teacher and many of my frens. Later many other teachers were also informed about it, (teachers room discussion, i guess)and they congratulated me. Its more than fours years now, but the stories of my happy spirit are still recalled by that teacher and my frens in any gathering. I still have, preserved the testimonials my fren gave me, while returning from the trip.
I have told about the incident behind the happy spirit to a few of my closeones, but they all came up with similar answer, "either i was drunk or in love"! Niether of them actually happened. I was just simply happy!! and that was enuf a reason to be euphoric!...will someday like to go back to that rock , to reveal the incognito of that piece of my life!!